My cousin here in Taiwan is really important to me and my life. She understands certain aspects of me pretty well, and wants to know me as much as anyone is able. She comes awfully close to hitting what this weblog is about, but without an express reason for its manifestation, she wouldn't actually guess it.

She's very supportive of anything I choose to do, but in her heart of hearts, she doesn't see me as a monk. I smile at that because I know what she sees is right, she just doesn't see what I see as the alternative. I may still pursue the monastic path, I may even be good at it, but she will know that something is still just out of alignment in that.