minor epiphanies:
+ I'm finding myself relating to the "undead" in Buffy the Vampire Slayer.  (i.e., the vampires)
+ the perfect descriptive of my attitude towards life in the worst of times:  sarcastic disinterest
+ the perfect descriptive of my attitude towards life in the best of times:  ironic disinterest
That hardly makes me manic. 
current soundtrack: The Kinks: "(Wish I Could Fly Like) Superman"