Rte 10 East, 1300', approaching Joshua Tree National Park

So I'm going to check out Tucson just because that's what I've been saying since December. It's not like I'm going to move there. What if I get there and it blows me away? It's weird, do I return to the Bay Area and tell people I'm definitely moving to Tucson? This is all just fancy and fantasy, not meant to happen. It's fascade. It's charade.

I'm not planning to stay in the Bay Area, such miserable weather, no job. I'm not moving to Tucson, there's nothing there, I know no one, no job, nothing concrete to bring me there. All negatives, no positives.

Just pretending I have this plan. I really don't. I can't.