I'm not positive I'll take the time off from the monastery after my brother's wedding, but once an idea like that takes off and gains momentum, it's hard to stop it. Now I'm pretty convinced that I will take the time off, even if the community opines that it's a really bad idea. It is my decision to make, they'd be the first ones to remind me that.

I'm even excited about it, although I have to remind myself this isn't a debaucherous bender. The design will be solitary, but with much engagement into the drudgery of material life. It feels like several months of being free from the constrictions of monastic living, but it's also several months of leaving the carefree freedom of monastic living. Give and take.