I lost sight of that for a while, what love is. Love is the full connect of all things spiritual, physical, metaphysical, emotional, mental, sexual between two people. When true love is there, you just lose control with a mad attraction. You get sucked into their face, their being, you melt; you don't know who you are anymore and it doesn't matter. And sex is not about pleasure, but being a part of this person, of being one and the same as this other person, no inhibitions, just full spiritual and animal abandon and connect.
Love doesn't cover obsession. "If you love someone, set him or her free" still applies. Love is best and complete when it's reciprocated, but if it isn't, you only know it's real if you can let them go and still love them. But that's not the point of this. This is about when it is a full circle.
All there is to do is drown. When you drown, you and the water become one; you are the water and the water is you. It doesn't matter that your life is leaving you. It is taking your life and you give it willingly. There is no selfishness. There is no self. If you're wondering whether you love someone, look at them and ask if you can drown in this. That is what I remember about love.
August 21, 2003; 6:41 P.M. - 16th Street in the Castro.
