I won't feel bad about not contacting Madoka more while she's in the U.S. Once Madoka and I feel that we want to tell each other about ourselves and be more involved with each others' happenings, then we will resume our old type of communication. It may never happen again, it may never have gone away, but there's no point in forcing anything when I know there is trust and respect between us no matter what happens.

We've never forced anything before, I don't think, and right now it's just not clicking, so I won't feel bad about it.