Date: 2003-09-25, 2:25PM
By the time many of you read this, I will either be on my way or gone. As I stated before, my post is not a cry for help or a plea for attention. I just wanted to voice some feelings before I left.
I thank all of you for your responses. I have read all of them with careful thought. To those of you who care and offered assistance, I thank you especially, but do know I have sought all of the help I have been able to stand. To those of you who write back in anger, I feel for your losses, but do know those feelings you express are yours. You have experienced a loss. Those who left you did not. Please do not be angry with us who are done here. We are merely offering a good-bye. Finally, to those of you who have offered comedy, you have indeed brought a smile to my face. Not enough to make me wish to stay, but a smile nonetheless. As far as donating my personal belongings, I have already taken care of most of that and have only the bare minimums to take with me.
To those of you who offered tears, I sincerely apologize. It was not my intention to make you sad. Please do not be. This is a positive choice for me, and I am not sad about it. I am sorry for your empathy. And I am sorry I cannot feel the same as you.
To those of you who have responded with inanities: please understand you are part of the problem. You offer such excellent proof of part of that problem against which I rail. You lives are vapid and empty with the exception of your own self-absorption. Please do not be part of the problem. Instead of just complaining, either fix the problems in your life, or politely excuse your selves.
As for my parking, space, that indeed will be up for grabs. And that shall be explained later.
Thank you all again for your responses. I shall continue reading your responses until late this afternoon when I depart.
Some of you have expressed the morbid curiosity so endemic to our human condition. I do not blame you; I would be curious as well. I have enlisted the aid of a close friend who will be posting the details of my departure tomorrow after I am gone. If I post such details now, some of you will doubtlessly attempt to notify officials at a needless expense to our society.
This friend is NOT assisting me with the act of suicide. Only with some of the details after I am gone.
Again, thank you for all of your comments and feelings. I do appreciate all of it, but I am just done. I have thought about this for several years now and have explored many different options. Needless to say, none of the options have blossomed in to anything I wish to pursue.
Thank you, and good-bye.
There’s nothing I can identify about this to suggest that it’s a fake, i.e., not by the original poster. Aside from the new mention of a "friend", it’s very consistent with the tone and content of the original suicide note. I think suicides tend to take meticulous care of relative trivialities, and this posting seriously addresses all the types of responses that were posted. He reiterates points from the original note, and they're consistent.
There was a post later on that was purportedly by the original poster, saying it was all a hoax to get a rise out of people, and I regret not copying it for further examination, but my impression was that it was clearly a forgery.
There were no follow-ups the next day by the "friend". It’s possible that the suicide overestimated the friend’s willingness or ability to be so "objective" and go along with it. It is also possible that the suicide backed down at the last moment and found some other course to follow.
