I'm not setting any dates anymore. If I decide it's time to kill myself, I'll just do it. I have all the materials I need. But from experience, as long as I'm not doing it, it's safe to assume that I won't.

I don't want to cause anyone anxiety anymore. I hadn't been looking past the end of Daylight Savings or the end of October because there are still things I wanted to do, including finishing the Threefold Lotus Sutra and reading through the Tibetan Book of the Dead again, and also spend two weeks at a monastery. Now a thing about returning my car to New Jersey has come up, so I'm looking at living well into November.

No rush, I'm not going to cram any last things I want to do, and when it's time to go, it's time to go; it's how I've built my life.